Followup with RE

We had our followup appointment with Dr. H yesterday. It went just as i had expected. He mentioned how my last cycle was good and he's upset that it didnt happen for us.
Our options are:

1) Try another cycle with him, it would be a low stim cycle. But we would only get maybe one egg, two if we were really lucky. Our chances are 5% to 10%.

2) Adption were still weighing our options with this.

3) Donor Eggs he recommends this option as our best chance we have a 50% chance with this. He gave me information on donor eggs in the states and here. He recommends Argentina as well, he is sending my information to the clinic there for them to review.

4) Try to accept that it might never happen for us. If it does ever happen naturally for us even Dr. H said it would be a mircle.

We already knew these would be our options and had decide to take a break for now. For how long its hard to say. I need to stop worrying about medications and needles. My husband lost his job two months ago so he needs to find something else so we can start saving some money. Depending on what the Argentina clinic says I would love to try this option.

I am not willing to accept option 4, somehow, some way I will be a mom. As a friend says There will always be a next step...

I AM NOT GIVING UP.

Today is my birthday. I turn 40, never would I have guessed this is were i would be at this point in my life. Nothing has gone as planned. Never have I shed so many tears.

Caring

It has been a tough week. Today I feel a little bit better, the tears have stopped althou I still get that pang of emotion when I think what lies ahead for us. I am reminded of the saying time heals all wounds. I am lucky to have some very special people in my life. I had to tell my co-workers about my journey in order to be able to take the time I need for my apppointments. They are an amazing group of women. I was suprised by this special gift from them on Wednesday.

I am at peace today, as I know that there might be a plan B for us. When I started this journey I thought that it would be easy, but it has been anything but easy. I don't know why I am taking this journey but I feel that I am not alone and will always have the support I need. I don't have any intentions of giving up somehow, some way I will be a mother.

Beta Day

Well today was beta day and of course its a BFN. I was already prepared thou i had done three pregnancy test and they were all negative. So when the nurse called and said resitantly "I don't have good news" I told her "I know" She said you tested I said "yes"

Hopefully the plan is to take a break and enjoy my life with my DH and my beautiful puppy Gizmo. I have a follow up with the RE on May 27th, funny the day before my birthday. Well see if he offers us any kind of encouragement.

So for now Life goes on!!!