IVF #2 Update - Day 1

We started the bcp on March 6th, the last one was on March 27th.

Today was our pre-assessment, also considered as my Day 1.

So we signed the paperwork, paid our fee and picked up our meds. Good news, we have four follicles on the right and three on the left. We just need to get them to start growing. I asked about my fsh and the nurse said the last time they checked it was 5.4 (good as they should be under 10). So the nurse just called my E2 levels are at 108 which is good it should be we start Gonal f 450 ( i know that a lot) and Menopur 150mg (that's a lot too) on April 3rd. I go back on April 6th for b/w and u/s again and hopefully my follicles will respond.

I'm still doing the accpunture twice a week. I love it The nurse laughed when i told her i felt like a human pin cushion. Between my insulin, medication and accpunture that's over 25 needles.

We attended the adoption seminar. I liked it. Although i didn't learn anything that i pretty much didn't already know. We are still keeping the adoption open, but were pretty overwhelmed at the process involved.

Happy Easter to everyone. I hope the easter bunny brings us all happy healthy eggs!!!!

It's Been Awhile

Well we made it thru the holidays, thank goodness. They get harder and harder every year. Because it also marks the anniversary of when we started TTCing. It has been three years that we decide to try. Who would have thought that this is the path that my life would take. I have good days and bad. Althou the bad days far out weigh the good lately. Not one day goes by where I don't shed a tear. Thak goodness for IVF.ca I have made a few good friends on there. I always turn to them for comfort and a kind word.

My blood sugar levels spiked up after my last IVF so we had to put IVF #2 on hold. But after 3 months I have finally gotten it back down to a number that my endocrinologist was happy with. So we can proceed to IVF. On Thursday I go back to the clinic for bloodwork and ultrasound. We'll basically have to start fresh with new blood tests and paperwork but thats ok. It feels like a fresh start. I'm trying not to get my hopes up. I also started accpunture and have go for 4 sessions, i was afraid at first but the needles are not that bad. There are days when its very relaxing.

On another note I decide since this IVF might be our last chance, that we should look into adoption. We go to adoption seminar tonight that is put on by adopt ontario. I am excited and nervous.

IVF #2

I haven't posted in a while i've been in a haze. I feel like a robot. My last appointment with my RE confirmed that we have one last chance with ivf. We are going to up the gonal f to 450 and try 150 of the menopur. If this doesn't work then the only other option would be donor eggs or adoption. I'm trying to come to terms with everything now. I don't want to get to hopeful and have a big disappointment. But its been really hard. I cry everynight and lay away for hours just thinking of what my life has come too. Never did I think that I would be where I am now when I started this process. I have been taking Coenzyme Q10 pills apparently they are suppose to help the eggs. IVF #2 is scheduled for the end of January probably beginning of February. The clinic is closed for the holidays and you have to be on the Q10 for a few months for them to work. So we'll see what 2010 holds. Will I have a baby or won't I.

Stay tuned!

IVF #1

Well its been a while since i posted. But we did start our first IVF cycle i started the lupron on sept 26th after taking the birth control pill for two weeks. I started the gonal f on Oct 1st i was on 300cc. Went in for my for my first bloodwork and ultrasound and everything looked ok my E2 was at 125. But after it went downhill from there on my second bloodwork my E2 levels were not rising so they put me on 600cc of goanl f at a $1000 a day i knew we wouldn't be able to do that much longer. Alas I did not respond to the gonal f and again my cycle was CANCELLED!!!!!

I am so frustrated, angry, upset and sad. I have yet to complete a whole cycle. At least if I got to complete one and got a BFN then it would feel like there was an end. This way it feels like i start but there no finish.

So were moving on IVF cycle #2 here's hoping that we get to the end. I find out Oct 19th when IVF #2 will be. Watch for it.

Moving to IVF

Well i got the call on Wednesday of last week that my 7th IUI cycle was cancelled and that our only option was to move to IVF. I cried all day on Thursday this was what not what I was hoping for. I am so fortunate and really apreciate my health plan thru my job. They have covered all my medications so far and might also cover 1 IVF cycle. We will pay for the 2nd one and see whether or not a third one is needed. My worst fear is that nothing will happen and we won't have a baby. Me and DH were saving some money to put a down payment on a house, but have decided that we will put that on hold.

So I have started prometrium and am waiting for my day to start the BCP. I go back to the clinic on Sept 10th for a follow-up with RE and to set up our IVF plan.

IUI #7

NOthing to say but, CANCELLED AGAIN!!!!!!!!!

Update

Well Af did show up. I am now on day 17 of IUI cycle #7. I started the puregon on day 3, i started 75cc. They have slowly been increasing it I am now on 150cc. My E2 has been going up really slowly and has also at times been coming back down. I am back in tomorrow and will hopefully have some good news. This process has been driving me crazy. I had to give up a camping trip that I was really looking forward too. My DH was upset at first, but then he understood. He's been really good and wakes up early to go with me for my b/w and u/s. I have a constant reminder on my arm from the b/w. I was thinking about getting something to remind myself of this struggle that I am going thru. So I got in contact with Melody from Hope of my Heart Designs and asked her to my me a fertility bracelet. Its just something to remind me to be strong and to have the courage to see this thru. That one day I will have my miracle.